5K Walk and an honest weight discussion.

I just got home from walking a 5k with a bunch of friends from my weight watchers meeting. The idea started when WW began to promote walking as a great activity. So, we planned this walk and many members have been practicing weekly. The actual 5K walk wasn't hard, we talked and walked together and had a good time. We also all donated a weight of food that was equivalent to the amount of weight that we had lost. I donated 31lbs even though I am currently at 18.2.

Lets discuss... I'll be frank here, I joined WW in September of 2006 during my sophomore year of college. I weighed in at 148. This was not my highest weight ever, I believe at one point during high school I remember seeing 156. Both of these weights are way to much for me. I have a small frame and am only 5 feet tall.

I was very successful on the program at the beginning. I made my 10% (15 lbs) in 6 months and made my goal of 128 on June 16, 2007. No one enforced the maintenance program with me so during maintenance, I changed to the Core program and lost another 6 pounds. I made lifetime at 5 pounds below my goal.

Eventually I got down to 117.8 and felt AMAZING. This was approximately a BMI of 23 and it was honestly the best weight for me. I wanted to get to 115 but once I hit 117.8, I began going up.

I had been slowly gaining back weight, first going up to about 121 and hovering there for a while. Then, going up to 123, then to 125, then to 127. As of this past week, I weighed in around 130. I have gained 13 pounds... I feel absolutely disgusting and am miserable all of the time. I feel bad because I have been a bitch to so many people because I am so pissed off at myself.

Honestly, I am sabotaging myself. I eat junk and too much of everything. I seriously need to cut down and cut out a lot of things. I was so motivated and determined in the beginning and now I basically don't care.

Hopefully, something will trigger me to get my life together and get my weight back to where it needs to be. I have a feeling that things might get a little better once I have passed the NCLEX (17 days!) and my schedule will be more relaxed.

Here I am around the time I joined WW.


Here is a picture of me on my 21st birthday (2008) at my thinnest.