Caring less

I had a bad day today. I used to absolutely love my job. It is generally easy, usually fun, and I have a great coworker whom I spend the whole day with. However, lately, I seem not be loving it as much.

When I was still studying, I used work as an excuse not to study, but then I would be thinking about studying all the time.

I have learned that I care too much. I guess that is a bad thing. I guess in this situation I came off as bossy. I understand this, but I honestly am just trying to help. A certain member of our staff who does not work in the office relies on me to get things done for her in the office. When I relay this information to the staff at the program, I am "bossy." Whatever, another one of our staff members told me to just stop caring and while that is hard for me, I tried it out today.

I know this doesn't make much sense to those other than myself, it is nice to vent sometimes. Even though my new career should involve caring a lot, my current job doesn't involve it at all. I am trying to keep this in mind.

Another reason I am not happy at work is because a few weeks ago I was grabbing a small slice of cake from a program that we were holding. (I know that I shouldn't be eating cake but I wanted it and had a decent lunch so I thought it would be okay.) As I was putting my cake onto a plate, a coworker comes up to me and says "That isn't good for your diet" in a very snarky tone. Then she tapped my love handles. It was completely rude and unnecessary. I was so shocked that someone would do that.

As if recently gaining 13 pounds doesn't make me feel bad enough, my b-tch of a coworker goes and says something like that. What kind of social skills are those? I teared up and my boss noticed. He did say something to her later but I also said something myself. I told her that that is the kind of thing you keep to yourself.

Anyway, I am miserable lately. I thought it would stop when I finished studying and passed the test but it hasn't decreased, the stressors have just changed.