Misery.

Again it has been a while. I always think about things I want to write about but never get to it. Which doesn't make much sense because I have nothing else to do. Seriously...

According to the title of this post, I am absolutely miserable. Nothing is going right for me. I hate complaining but WTH. Why can't I get things to work out for me? Everyone says "your time will come." I absolutely hate that. Its not fair for someone to have everything that I want, while I have nothing.

I haven't heard anything from the job shadowing I did. I know I have a few more weeks but I am doubtful that anything will come of it. And, if nothing does, I honestly have no other options. I probably will never get a nursing job. People keep saying "you will get one eventually..." But no, that is not true. All of the hospitals are done hiring new graduates and won't hire any more until next summer. So, then its me competing with people who just graduated and have relatively recent information in their heads, while I have been sitting around working at Weight Watchers all year. (Side note: I love working for WW its just not going to be my lifelong career.)

I just want something good to happen for me, whether it be a job, or Jacoby actually being a good dog for once, or finding a place to live. I just want to be happy.